Creative Creator

One of the classes I am taking at Center for Global Action is called “Discover Your Calling.” We have taken personality tests, strengthsfinder tests, and talked about our passions and skills among other things.

This process has been good, it has shown me a lot about myself. I have realized that I have a gift for empathy and intuitively understanding others. I’ve also realized that I share the same Myers Briggs personality (INFP if you are wondering) with Frodo Baggins (theoretically), Johnny Depp, and William Shakespeare.

Aside from that there have been some hard realizations.

I’ve realized there are things about myself that I no longer view as valuable because they feel cliche and overused.

On the race, each day we sat down as a team and gave feedback to each other. Being a quiet, calm person and a good listener is something that I heard often. Those are good things and at the time I definitely needed to hear it. However, I’ve heard those things so many times they have lost their meaning and I no longer see the value and power in them.

I heard them so frequently that it made me doubt that I had any other qualities to bring.

This has bled into other areas of my life. My last blog post was an “all about me” post, the things I like and enjoy, but I never shared it on social media because in my mind everyone loves coffee shops and elephants.

Basically I’ve been going through a season of doubting the truth that God uniquely and purposefully created me. I’m doubting that He is a Creative Creator when it comes to me.

In writing this blog I am fighting the urge to wrap this up with a neat little bow, to portray that I’m ok and I have this whole life thing together.

But the truth is I’m not at the resolution point yet and I am still working through this with Jesus.

Thankfully I believe “He who began a good work in me will bring it to completion.”

 

So that is where I am at this week. But within this season of working through hard things I want to continue to seek to be thankful for the blessings God gives me.

Today I am thankful for spontaneous adventures with friends to get cupcakes and cookies on our lunch break!

I’m thankful that the sun is finally making an appearance for the first time this week!